This week was pretty productive. I went to my sweetland meeting. It was ok, we had good conversation, i guess ill continue to go after break. I spent allot of time this week drawing my cover design/postcard image. I kinna like it, its not finished tho, maybe ill feel different about it when its completed. I also spent time with my book design. the designing of the book layout is taking allot more time and effort that i had originally anticipated, but its ok, im enjoying the process. over break im just going to continue messing around with layouts and doing illustrations.

ok, so this week i spent the time modeling the 3D for my illustrations. I also got some good advice and/or possible directions to go in as pertaining to my book layout. i made my appointment with sweetland and its this coming monday at 10:30. I e-mailed the person im supposed to meet with because the sweetland policy states that each student can only meet for thirty minutes, and they are to bring the written work with them in paper form for the counselor to read. I told the guy my writing was long, about 55 pages, so since we only have 30 mins, its kind of impossible for you to sit there, read it all, then give me feedback. is there a way i could send it to you and have you read before hand so that we can discuss. He said no, sorry, but we dont read the work before hand, you can bring it in and we can have some broader conversations on the work, we can look at parts of the work and discuss. I said ok, and ask if there was someone else, or some other way to have someone read my work and really give me feedback, he said again, no, we dont read the work before hand. I thanked him, and will be seeing him on monday. I guess hell read tidbits and we will have discussion on whatever parts he does. Ill see how it goes. FUCK!!!! DAMN SWEETLAND BULLSHIT!!!! now, i realize that i might be speaking a bit soon seeing as how i have yet to go to the meeting, but i have a feeling that this meeting is going to annoy the piss out of me. I only have thirty minutes minus the time its gonna take him to read what hes gonna read, then im gonna have to verbally explain the story, and hes gonna ask questions, questions that would be answered already have he would have read. now, im sure from what he reads he can give me grammar and sentence structure help, which is always wanted. but c'mon now, i need comments on story, the structure of the story, how to better develop the characters and their relationships, how to better drive the feelings across that im trying to communicate, i need deep criticism on the story itslef, as well as grammar shit. any asshole can give me grammar and sentence structure help. sigh. well anything he says to me i can definitely use, and i appreciate him taking the time out to help me. jesus, can someone please point me in the direction of an actual writer that is willing to read and seriously critique my work, not this surface level bullshit. with all the money i pay to go to this damn school its a shame that its so hard to find. but like i said, i have not been to the meeting yet, who knows, it can be exactly what i need.

This week was a very hectic week, I missed class on tuesday due to illness, and i spent thursdays class working on my project. I have begun to model the 3D portions of the project. I have settled on a book layout that I feel is fine, although some classmates believe that I could go farther with my book layout decisions, and in some ways i agree, I strongly feel that I dont have anymore time to waste debating on book layout. I need to go full speed ahead with the 3D and the drawings because my time is running out. I have to finish the drawings, put the book together and send it off to be published, and the fact that I dont know how long it will take for lulu to publish my books and send them back is worrying me so I am hitting the ground running. I met with megan yesterday, and although our conversations were most productive she actually disappointed me a bit. I remember sitting in my meeting with megan and hanna and hanna told me that megan would be wiling to read my (as well as others) work and come back at a later date to discuss. My immediate response was that my project was kind of long, about 50 pages give or take, and her response was.... ok thats not that much. And hanna chimed in stating that oh yea, 50 pages is nothing to her, shes a writer, and a writing teacher, to us thats a big deal, but to her its nothing. Then I get in the meeting to find out that Megan didn't read the whole thing, only parts one and two and im just like....damn. I thought i had found someone worthy. I mean dont get me wrong, megan was very useful and we had great conversation, i thoroughly enjoyed our meeting, she really helped me allot!!! but i still couldn't help but be annoyed, because when things like this happen, i get asked questions, and have to spend 10 mins explaining something that would have been made clear had you finished reading. Like i said me and megans meeting went very well, and i appreciate her taking the time out so dont take these words the wrong way, im just expressing what bothered me a bit. Now, as i stated I'm currently modeling the 3D for my project, we got group critiques tues and honestly i dunno how much im going to have to show, and here is why... This thing that we call life, IS CURRENTLY WHOOPING MY ASS!!! My ass is burning in the flames and my life is falling apart! it seems like if it aint one thing its another, and a whole mass of messed up shit has recently been happening to me all at the same time! What you ask? Im not really at liberty to share, especially on an internet blog, but all im asking all of you is to understand. Yes its true ive been slipping, but i have good reason and im and currently in the process of pulling things back together. So please, im asking you to understand, and cut ya mans sum slack!! hard times my friends, hard times. Im in the process of gettin my shit together as we speak so just please cut me sum slack and i promise you will not regret it.

Tyrone M

This week I finished the text on Sanguine Moon. After receiving feedback on my last draft there were parts I wanted to change, and parts I wanted to ad in. Now that im finished with the changes I think the story is better already. I'm scheduled to meet with Megan on friday, so im excited to see how that goes. Now to set my appointment with sweetland. Now that I'm done with he text, I'm going to begin modeling my 3D backgrounds.